Confused...and I know it's not from you Father.....

Today, I'm dreaming of sitting on the North Shore of Lake Superior....praying.....and seeking God for his wisdom.

When did it happen??? When did it become so difficult??? Why all the confusion??? Why does my heart feel so conflicted??

God, you are NOT the author of confusion, but rather the author of peace.

You NEVER meant it to be this difficult.....for you are NOT difficult!!

God, reveal your perfect will to me.....to my husband.....for our family needs to hear from you!! I know we are in the *school of waiting*...yet....I want this classroom session to be over....I want to take this test...and move on!!

Yet, for some reason, we still are asked to wait.......God we need a divine encounter from you.....I know your ways are NOT our ways....so I'm asking you Lord....show up....reveal yourself....reveal your plan!!!

Help me Father....to keep my eye's focused on you...not to the right, nor to the left. Give me your Holy Boldness to have my YES...be yes....and my NO to be no. Work in my heart so that I'm about doing the Father's business...and not allow myself to get sucked into *pleasing*....and doing things out of guilt, or feeling sorry for others!!!

If my heart is grieving Father...I know yours is too!! Your gospel isn't difficult......yet at times...we seem to get in the way.

Speak to me Lord...I'm listening~