Resting.....in Him

This past week has been a week of many difficult situations which make up "life".  We each deal with them.  Sometimes, they trickle in like a small stream, and other times, it feels as though the flood-gates have been opened, and the water's of trials seem to be all consuming.

Our week has been one that has felt all consuming:

~My two Sister-in-laws (my two brother's wives) found out that their dad's have cancer

~a marriage is being tested

~my mom is dealing with health issues

~my dad went in for a heart stress test, and his results will require him to meet with the heart doctor first thing Monday morning.  (my dad also has cancer, and he had a 5 bypass open heart 5 yrs ago)

~trying to find a balance between work/life/ministry...especially when people are very needy and you know you need to show "tough love"..you know you need to draw some lines in the sand, and you pray and ask for wisdom

~walking with our daughter as she seeks God for his "plan for her life"

~walking our daughter through the "hurts" of lost friendships as she's determined, "I have decided to follow Jesus....and though none go with me, still I will follow."  

~helping our son develop a greater character as he now has a new head basketball coach and often the behavior from the  coach borderline abuse, rather than coaching.

We each deal with difficulties like these; for some the issues may be the same, for others, they may be different.  Regardless of our trail, we all face them.

As our family as been walking this road this past week, God gave me Psalms 62:1 to hold on to.  It says,

"My soul finds rest in God alone."

My mind may tell me to worry.......be filled with fear......but my soul beacons me to find rest!!

I've determined:

~regardless of the cancer outcomes...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of the marriage situation...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of what my mom finds out at the doctor...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of what the heart doctor tells my dad...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of work/life/ministry stresses...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of what direction God sends Ashley...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of lost friendships...I WILL rest in him

~regardless of how the coach treats Andrew...I WILL rest in him

It all comes down to my choice.  It's not easy to convince my mind of what my heart knows.  Yet, as I rest in Jesus, he can renew my mind.

“Lord, You have numbered my days. Only you know what the future holds. Right now I confess that I haven’t trusted you lately, and I ask for your forgiveness. I want this time in my life, especially this time, to honor you. I want to have the faith of a mustard seed. I want to look my giant square in the eyes and proclaim that You are the keeper of my soul. I need your help, I can’t face this on my own. So many times I have turned away from you, yet you patiently wait. You wait for me. I don’t understand why you love me so much. Yet here you are. Protect my thoughts, in those quiet moments when I feel alone, remind me that you are there. 365 times you said “Do not fear”, help me not to fear. Remind me that you are my voice of truth, no one elses voice matters but yours. I will praise you, no matter the outcome, but please guard my heart in the mean time.”