5 months-----only by his grace

We've reached the 5 month mile marker of our journey from when we said good-bye to you, and I honestly didn't think or know how we'd make it 1 month.  But we did, and Jesus continues to carry and sustain us.  

There are 2 dates I hold so close to my heart....the 9th is the date everything changed in my world.  The moments leading up to me finding you, how I found you, and the steps I took to try to save your life, have truly been etched in my heart and mind forever.  For it was in that very moment  I said my final good-bye while waiting for the paramedics to arrive.  Then there's the 12th of each month, when we gathered around your hospital bed, said our good-byes again and saw you for the very last time.     

5 months.....153 days you've been in the presence of Jesus.  Happy, whole, healed and worshipping him around the throne. 

5 months......153 days closer.....to when I'll see you again.  2 Peter 3:8 'says that one day is with the Lord as a thousand on earth'. I find great comfort in knowing that from your vantage point....I'll be seeing you so very...very soon.

Since losing you, heaven truly holds a different perspective in my heart, mind and life.  There's a longing that I can't explain...a yearning that won't go away....and a HOPE...that soon Jesus will come back for his church, and we'll spend eternity together.

I also see the yearning, in our grandkids.  I LOVE how they talk about you all the time, and share such sweet memories of you.  I thought they might soon forget you, because they are so little; but they haven't..they talk about you all the time, and it's so evident that pieces of you are being carried on in and thru them.  Tonight Jack came and sat on my lap and said, "Nana, I'm going to love Jesus forever and have him in my heart.... because if I do...I'll get to see papa again one day." Jack sure misses you....his 'lego' building buddy!  

Thank you, for laying such an amazing foundation for our family.  For it's in and thru our FAITH we are able to rest in Jesus' unfailing love, hope, and promises. We rejoice in knowing that Heaven waits for us, and death is not our end.

Love you always.......

Click below to listen to As It Is:

As It Is (In Heaven)

Verse 1
Whether now or then
Death is not my end
I know heaven waits for me
Though the road seems long
I’ll never walk alone
I’ve got all I need to sing

Pre-Chorus
I know You love me
I know You found me
I know You saved me
And Your grace will never fail me
And while I’m waiting
I’m not waiting
I know heaven lives in me

Verse 2
Should I suffer long
This is not my home
I know heaven waits for me
Though the night is dark
Heaven owns my heart
I’ve got all I need to sing

Chorus
So I will sing like I will there
In the fearless light of glory
Where the darkness cannot find me
And Your face is all I see
I will sing like a man
With no sickness in my body
Like no prison walls can hold me
I will sing like I am free

Bridge 1
I’ll sing holy holy
My heart cries holy
As it is in heaven
It is in me

Bridge 2
We’ll sing holy holy
The earth cries holy
As it is in heaven
So let it be